Seeking Timothy


Seeking Timothy

One of the hallmarks of God’s work in our lives is the continuity of care which guides our journey. That loving Presence manifests in the form of unmerited grace. Not an in your face kind of relationship, but rather an ever-present awareness we are not alone in the challenges of our days. As I fret or become anxious over the direction that my life should take, God in His infinite wisdom moves me along an unseen pathway as I surrender to His will. That choice becomes second nature as I walk together along the road with Him. My trust in His goodness grows as I reflect upon His ability to use all the events of my life according to His divine plans. My walk with Him becomes the evidence of His supreme ability to shape and mold events consistent with His purpose.
The gift of Dismas Project comes into sharper view as I think past my own existence. I know that this outreach is intended to honor God by serving those who have been excluded by society. Jesus had a special affinity for those abandoned by society and I have been given the gift of sharing that reality. Initially I had carried this gift on my shoulders as if I were the sole donkey capable of sustaining this burden. My myopic understanding of this gift limited my ability to stand still and see God’s hand at work. I am now convinced that my own reticence to look beyond my abilities and resources and see God’s divine purposes have had a slowing effect upon the scope and extent of this outreach. Many times I have discussed the prospects of my own death and the possibilities of Dismas Project transcending that experience.
Given my limited understanding of God’s divinity I have struggled with the prospects of finding and preparing a Timothy to shoulder the task in my absence. In itself such reasoning clearly shows my limitations to grasp God’s goodness and provision. That convoluted thought process has resulted in a diminished ability to sustain a realistic expectation that anything I can do will survive my own death. In the glorious way God has helped me to come to a stand-still and invited me to listen to His word. It seems that I am only able to hear Him as I stand still and understand that the world is His Creation. In my frenetic activity I had become singularly focused on finding a Timothy to share a future commitment to these unfortunates. In that limited understanding I have been unable to grasp the word of God which promises to provide all that we require in life.
So today I write about seeking Timothy, not because I am still engaged in such a willful pursuit, but rather, because I realize that God will sustain His grace out of His great love for us. So I have come to a point of awareness where I can commit these efforts to His care and believe with all of my heart that His love will reach through the steel bars and barbed wire that confines others and marginalizes their family members. My pride has been checked in the process of growing out of control and I again am graciously invited to be His servant in these humble matters. I have committed this to writing so that in days to come others might praise Him and glorify His name for the continuity of grace that envelopes our lives. Instead of harboring a burden I have been given a joyful encounter with His Providence. That subtle shift in awareness brings me to a unique understanding of the transformative power of an encounter with the Holy Spirit. Once more I can just enjoy my journey knowing that God is in control and the challenges of the day have already been anticipated and resolved.
Lesson learned: In stillness I become productive and fruitful.

 
 

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